Le Journey

long journey =)

hello peeps !!! sorry i'm not updating my blog for such a long time.
as i promise before, today i'm gonna tell you a lot of stories. (Y)

starting this holiday, i was so busy with my MUET and my cousin's wedding.
everything starting on the 19th November 2011, which was my MUET paper. so far, i'm quite satisfied with my effort on MUET. pray for my result dear =)

then, right after the exam, i straightly went to Gombak, my uncle's house. Alhamdulillah, my cousin is officially and blissfully married to her husband. Unfortunately, we weren't there during the akad nikah. However, congratulations Kak Farah and Abg Kidin. hope you guys gonna live happily ever after. =)
then, the next day 20th November is the wedding ceremony. We were quite sad because it was raining. But the most important thing is we enjoyed the day so much.

One week after day, we continue the wedding ceremony on the groom side at Terengganu. Seriously, Terengganu is so far away, it took almost 9 hours to arrived there. =( tired...
But i enjoyed the scenery, it's so beautiful (Y)

btw, i have wrote so much here, so now its the time to enjoy the pics. have fun peeps. see ya!!!!

happy couple

i pray for your happiness

they're in love =)

next groom, at the back =P

with my parents, =)

with abg an =)

specky =P (Y)

najwa holili and ayuni holili <3

GIRLS LANGUAGE

When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.
When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she thinks shes stronger than you, grab her and don`t let go.
When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough, kiss her and tell her you love her.
When she`s quiet, ask her what`s wrong.
When she ignores you,give her your attention.
When she pulls away, pull her back.
When you see her at her worst, tell her she`s beautiful.
When you see her start crying, just hold her and don`t say a word.
When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.
When she`s scared, protect her and make her feel safe with you.
When she steals your favorite hoodie, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.
When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.
When she doesn't answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.
When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up.
When she says that she loves you, she really does more than you can understand.
When she grabs at your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.
When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.
When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.
When she looks at you in your eyes, don`t look away until she does.
When she says it`s over, she still wants you to be hers.

r.i.g.h.t. h.e.r.e. r.i.g.h.t. n.o.w

Can you imagine what would happen if we could have any dream
I wish this moment was ours to own it
And that it would think never leave
Then I would thank that star that made our wish come true
Cause he knows that where you are is where I should be too

Right here, right now
I'm lookin' at you
And my heart loves the view
Cause you mean everything
Right here, I promise you somehow
That tomorrow can wait some other day to be
But right now there's you and me

If this was forever, what could be better before it proved it was
But in two thousand one hundred twenty-three hours invented the universe
There's gonna be everything in our whole world change
And you know that where we are will never be the same

Right here, right now
I'm lookin' at you
And my heart loves the view
Cause you mean everything
Right here, I promise you somehow
Tomorrow can wait some other day to be
But right now there's you and me

Oh we know its comin'
And it's comin' fast

But theres always you and me

So lets make this second last

Make it last

But right now there's you and me

i can't unlove you

wait for the boy who pursues you,

the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical;

the kind of boy who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person.

wait for the boy who will be your best friend;

the person who will drop everything to be with you at any time of the day

no matter what the circumstances

wait for the boy who makes you smile like no other boy, makes you smile,

and when he smiles you know he needs you

wait for the boy who wants to show you off to the world

when you are in sweats and have no makeup on, but

appreciates it when you get all dolled up for him

and most of all, wait for the boy, who will put you at the center of his universe,

because obviously he's at the center of yours.

and i have wait for the boy

Happy Father's Day

Hari Ahad yang lepas, seperti yang sedia maklum adalah Hari Bapa. so, dikesempatan ini, saya nak ucapakan "HAPPY FATHER'S DAY" to all abah, ayah, babah, baba, papa, daddy, abi, walid, bapa out there. May Allah bless you =)

so, this entry was specially dedicated to my beloved abah, HOLILI BIN MUHAMAD.

ABAH,

I feel safe when you are with me;
You show me fun things to do;
You make my life much better;
The best father I know is you.I’m happy you’re my Dad
And so I want to say
I love you, Dad, and wish you
A Happy Father’s Day! You may have thought I didn't see,
Or that I hadn't heard,
Life lessons that you taught to me,
But I got every word.Perhaps you thought I missed it all,
And that we'd grow apart,
But Dad, I picked up everything,
It's written on my heart.Without you, Dad, I wouldn't be
The girl I am today;
You built a strong foundation
No one can take away.I've grown up with your values,
And I'm very glad I did;
So here's to you, dear father,
From your forever grateful kid.

ABAH, i knew, i'm not a good child to you. i'm the one who refused to be a teacher as you dreamt. but, i'm promised to be a good doctor that you can be proud of. ABAH,i just wanted to say, that i love you so much and no one in this world can replace your place. thanks for loving me, and be patient towards me =)SARANGHAE APPA ♥

Dysmenorrhoea

Dysmenorrhoea or menstrual pain normally occurs to women that have reach puberty and when they start to menstruate. However, not all women experiences menstrual pain. As me, myself, i'm starting experiences this dysmenorrhoea a few months after my first period. The pain started a few days before you menstruate. But the most painful day is the first day of menstruate. First of all, it feels like crampy pain in my lower abdomen especially in my stomach. then, the pain getting worst till i can't bear it at all. Cold sweat, shaking are my best friend when the dysmenorrhoea started. the best way to reduce the pain is taking pain killer or any medicine contain paracetamol. (usually we call it as panadol)

However, there are two types of dysmenorrhoea which is primary dysmenorrhoea and secondary dysmenorrhoea. and here are some about dysmenorrhoea . =) have a nice, happy reading

TYPE OF DYSMENORRHOEA

Primary dysmenorrhoea refers to menstrual pain that occurs in otherwise healthywomen. The pain is fluctuating, spasmodic or ‘labour-like’ cramp. This type of pain is not related to any specific problems with the uterus or other female reproductive organs. Symptoms begin with or shortly (6months) after the first menstrual period (menarche). It begins a few hours before or with menses and is most intense during the first 24-36 hours. It lasts for 2-3 days. The pain generally occurs in the lower abdominal region and may spread to thighs and back. There could be associated nausea, vomiting, dizziness or diarrhea.

Second dysmenorrhoea or congestive dysmenorrhoea is menstrual pain that is attributed to some underlying disease or structural abnormality either within or outside the uterus (eg. pelvic inflammatory disease, fibroids, endometriosis, adhesions, adenomyosis, uterine displacement or a retroverted uterus). Symptoms begin at a later age, approximately 2 or more years after the first period. The pain begins more than a few hours before menses. There could be a history of IUCD (intrauterine contraceptive device) or repeated pelvic infection or presence of a pelvic disease or structural abnormality after examination.

WHAT CAUSES THE PAIN OF PRIMARY DYSMENORRHOEA?

The cause is not clear. The uterus is normal. What is thought to happen is that normal body chemicals called prostaglandins build up in the lining of the uterus. Prostaglandins help the uterus to squeeze (contract) and shed the lining of the uterus during a period. In women with period pain there seems to be a build-up of too much prostaglandins, or the uterus may be extra sensitive to the prostaglandins. This may cause the uterus to contract too hard, which reduces the blood supply to the uterus. This can lead to pain.

WHAT ARE THE SYMPTOMS OF PRIMARY DYSMENORRHOEA?

The main symptom is crampy pain in your lower abdomen. Often, the first few periods that you have are painless. Period pains may only develop 6-12 months after you have started your periods. The pain:

May spread to your lower back, or to the top of your legs.
Usually starts as the bleeding starts, but it may start up to a day before.
Usually lasts 12-24 hours, but lasts 2-3 days in some cases.
Can vary with each period. Some periods are worse than others.
Tends to become less severe as you get older or after having a baby.

In some women, other symptoms occur during a period in addition to pain. For example: headaches, tiredness, faintness, breast tenderness, feeling sick, bloating, diarrhoea and feeling emotional or tearful.

HOW IS DYSMENORRHOEA TREATED?

Lifestyle modification:Take plenty of fluids like water, fruit juices, coconut water, etc. before your periods.

Exercise: Exercising regularly can make one feel better. Aerobic workouts such as walking, jogging, biking or swimming help produce chemicals that block pain.

Apply heat: A warm bath or a heating pad or hot water bottle on the abdomen can be soothing.

Sleep: Make sure you get enough sleep before and during your period to help cope with any discomfort.

Relax: Medicate or practice yoga which can help cope with pain.

MEDICATION

Treatment may also include medications called NSAIDs (non-steroidal anti-inflammatory drugs) that prevent the formation of prostaglandins thus making cramps less severe. NSAIDs work best if taken at the first sign of your period or pain. They should usually be taken for only 1or 2 days and alcohol should be avoided during this time. Women with bleeding disorders, liver damage, stomach disorders, or ulcers should not take NSAIDs.

Other medications are those that relax the muscles of the uterus. In some cases, a mix of treatments works best. The doctor might prescribe birth control pills. These medicines can make your periods less painful.

If the cause of dysmenorrhoea is found, the treatment will focus on removing or reducing the problem.

S.T.A.Y

Well, it's good to hear your voice
I hope you're doing fine
And if you ever wondered
I'm lonely here tonight

I'm lost here in this moment
And time keeps slipping by
And if I could have just one wish
I'd have you by my side

Oh , oh I miss you
Oh , oh I need you

And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed, no one can take your place
It gets harder every day

Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me, I will stay, I will stay

While I tried to live without you
The tears fall from my eyes
I'm alone and I feel empty
God, I'm torn apart inside

I look up at the stars
Hoping you're doing the same
And somehow I feel closer
And I can hear you say

Oh , oh I miss you
Oh , oh I need you

I love you more than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed, no one could take your place
It gets harder every day

Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry it is this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me, I will stay, I will stay

I never wanna lose you
And if I had to, I would choose you
So always stay, please, always stay
You're the one that I hold on to
'Cause my heart would stop without you

I love you more than I did before
And if I don't see your face
Nothing's changed, no one could take your place
It gets harder every day

Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me, I will stay, I will stay, I'll always stay

And I love you more than I did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask, I will stay, I will stay, I will stay

I don't love you any less in fact i love him even more

I'm 19 Years Old!

Patutnya entry ni dah wujud 2 bulan lepas. tapi atas sebab-sebab yang tak dapat dielakkan

(sebenarnya malas hahaha) =) baru hari ini tergerak hati nak edit post yang dah lama tersadai kat dalam draft.

26 February 2011, saya dah pun berumur 19 tahun. =), sayang, saya dah tue =,='

look back 19 years ago, precisely at 8:15 pm, a baby girl was born on Wednesday. the baby girl was born at home. greeted by a midwife who was pregnant too =).

infant weighing 3.0kg was named Hazwani Najwa binti Holili, that is me!!

itulah cerita kelahiran saya. mama kata, mama tak sempat dibawa ke hospital sebab saya nak keluar dah.. hehehe =) dan kebetulan waktu tu, bulan puasa or dekat-dekat nak puasa kot. (=,=' tak pasti lorh) kesian mama kena ganti puasa sebab berpantang di bulan puasa. eei, jahatnye ko, wanie =) dan kebetulan waktu tu, kakak mama a.k.a Cik Maria ada di rumah. jadi mama kata, Cik Maria orang pertama yang pegang wanie and dukung wanie. thats why wanie sangat rapat dengan Cik Maria sampai sekarang. (siap tidur berkepit ag kalau Cik Maria balik rumah sini, eei, tak malunye (nada Ana Raffali)

bila dah masuk umur 19 tahun ni, saya dah tua rupanya. walaupun saya lagi tua dari dia, tapi.. dia lagi matang dari saya =,=' saya mengaku saya manja, kuat merengek and childish. tapi itu memang sifat saya dari kecil. lambatnya dapat adik menyebabkan saya manja ngan mama and abah. 5 tahun babe tak de adik, heaven lorh.. pastu ada abang yang begitu menyayangi, hahaha aku bodek kau bang, lagi la manja. siapa berani sentuh adik Ayoi ini, nak kene pukul ngan stick hoki.. hahahaha =) diharapkan dengan bertambahnya usia, saya akan jadi lagi matang. dan semua yang saya impikan menjadi kenyataan =)

kepada, Ainuddin Kamarudin, a.k.a my bee =), terima kasih sebab jadi orang pertama yang wish birthday saya. and sayang. jangan lupa tau cake secret recipe saya. bukan satu tapi dua erk =) dan kepada kawan-kawan saya, Hariz Zakwan, Shafiqah Ilyana, Farah Fatin, Ariff, Shikin, Puteri Atiey, Pieja, Nadiah, Jagathiswarri, and semua yang wish. (sorry kalau tak tersebut, sorry tau) and family saya, cousins yang wish and paling saya ingat adik saya, HUDA AYUNI. wish kau memang superb la dik. sayang kau =) bodek-bodek hahahaha. btw, thanks to Kak Um, sebab belikan kek ari tu. kitorang wat birthday party untuk baby-baby February ! and meraikan persaraan Cik Atib. thx abg ngah sebab tempahkan Chocolate Indulgence Secret Recipe, sedap !!!!

saya sudah 19 tahun !!

Happy Birthday Babies February !!

sangat sedap !!!

The Memories Remain

I can see the sadness in your eyes
and every teardrop that you cry
I hope you know it's hard to let you go

the time is here I have to say goodbye
I laid my life I’ve seen the light
I hope you know it's hard to let you go

I swear to be the shadow by your side
to be the shining star
to light the darkness of your night
I will survive

in the end
as I cross the line of life and dead
I find my way back in your heart again
and I promise I will stay for ever and a day
THE MEMORIES REMAIN

I want to be the pillars of your strength
to give you hope until the end
no matter where I will be there

as long as u will let me stay
I'll be with u
no matter when or where
I will be there

I swear to be the shadow by your side
to be the shining star
to light the darkness of your night
you will survive
keep me alive

in the end
as I cross the line of life and dead
I find my way back in your heart again
and I promise I will stay for ever and a day
THE MEMORIES... REMAIN

The End Of Semester Two

after 4 months of struggling, the semester two is done. finished. :)

thinking of sem two there are a lots of thing happened. happy :), sad :(, joy =), frustrated T_T, its all blend together.

frankly speaking, i didn't done well for my sem 2. i just take things for granted . even for the final, i think i didn't put all of my afford for it. i'm just played around. now, i'm totally realized that, i had make a big mistake in my life. :(

HAZWANI NAJWA HOLILI

the chance that your parents give to study is only ONCE. do it well and never let them down. did u realize that how many people around you have put high expectations on you?

open your eyes najwa!!

however, this sem have thought me a lot. and this sem also, i learned more about friendship. here are some pictures that have been snap by me during this sem. nothing much just a appreciation to all my buddies.