the second ending

Its been a long pause from my previous post.

The end of the second year is just around the corner. The first exam will take place on this Wednesday. Then, there will be a lot of papers to be face.

This semester is the toughest semester I ever have. The stress, the challenges, the curriculum, the workloads and everything about this semester really test me. There is one time where I thought of giving up. Yes, seriously, I'm giving up.

I was trying my best to be the survivor. But I knew it wasn't easy. Because if it is easy, everybody can do it. Two weeks before the final, the body wasn't well. Bruises appeared here and there without any reasons. The body is getting weaker and weaker. Can the body hold on for a moment ?

Then, a small accident occurred. Worsening the conditions. But Allah choose me cause He knew I can face it. I'm strong enough maybe or I'm so naughty so that Allah give me a chance to behave :)

The classes wasn't finished yet. There will be some lectures during the study week. Physiotherapy is getting harder and harder. There are a lot to be learn and to be remember and its totally will be more difficult.

But you don't choose your destiny because sometimes the destiny choose you.

Pray for us. Hope we will be doing fine.
Amin :)


I never knew that I will fall in love with you. I never thought of it.
I don't even know if this love is right. But heart doesn't lies, right.

No matter how hard I tried to deny it. Its getting stronger and sweeter everyday.
I never felt like this before. To love and to be loved so deeply.

Thanks for coming and I really hope that you will stay. Forever.
I knew its not like an ordinary relationship.
Because both of us are awesome, we will an incredible and extra ordinary journey :)

I really hope that both of us are strong enough to face every challenges that may come.
As long as you are strong, I will stay strong. For us. For our future. Promise.

In every prayer that I made, not even once I forgot to make a du'a for us.
I really hope it will end happily as we ever wanted. I really hope this will end like we dream about.
I shouldn't put so much hope on this, cause I knew I'm the one who will be hurts the most.
But I know, as long as we keep praying and hope for the best thing, Allah will guide us to the right path.
So, never give up. He will done the rest for us.

I never knew the moment I started to fall in love with you. But I knew it grows everyday.
And every time I look at you, I fall in love again and over again. :)

Mr Sheben,
I love you so much.