The End Of Mid Semester Exam

Assalamualaikum. hello peeps :)
How's your day and what is your mood today? anyway, i hope that, all of you are in the pink of health. :)

It is 16 of March today, and last two weeks is my mid semester exam and Alhamdulillah, its all done. I take three subjects this semester and one of them is my subjects for degree which are Biology II, Mathematics II and EAW (English for Academic Writing). I've already got my results for Maths and EAW. I'm quite disappointed with my Math's result as I have made such a lot of silly mistakes that cause me to lose about 7 marks. :( Imagine that, and I'd cried after getting that paper, silly me.

However, for the EAW, seriously, I didn't put so much hope on that paper, as I knew I didn't perform well for it. But yesterday, when my lecturer gave me the paper, she said, "Hazwani, good" and I was shocked seeing that 17 out of 20 is written there. Dear Allah, thank you so much :). I got full marks for the Section A and I did some mistakes in the Section b which reduced my marks by 3. But overall, I'm totally satisfied. At the same time, we are required to show her the progressing of our assignment. I got a partner doing this "little thesis" (that what we used to call it) and we are doing on dry skin. and another good news from Madam Nawal when she said, "Good, both of you are in the right track". Its such a relieve and feel like all the burden have go away ~~~~ :)
Now, I just need to focus on the methodology and the discussion.

Biology ?? I still didn't get the paper from my lecturer. but she promise that, we can have it by Monday. Feeling excited ? totally not, instead I feel like getting my final exam result right now, seriously!! Totally nervous and frighten :( but whatever the result is, I accept it with all my heart, because I knew that, I didn't done it well, I take it for granted and I shouldn't regret it because what I got later is showing my effort towards it and Allah never give us more that what we have done.

Now, I will be focusing on my final and settle out everything especially the assignments (both Bio and EAW) and do pray for me peeps. At this moment actually, I'm waiting for my bee :) come back from his training and hoping for a good news from him. Hopefully he manages to get it, but if not, its totally fine dear. What is it about ? wait for the next entry ... So, TTFN

with lots of love,

Damya <3

Hijab :)

Assalamualaikum.. Hello peeps :)
How's your day ?

Hijab? What should we say about hijab ?
I'm not a good muslimah but I'm trying to be.

I was told to wear hijab since I was 10 years old. Tapi, I keep asking, kenapa kena pakai? What are the real purpose of wearing it? and no one answer it for me.

So, bila dan meningkat dewasa, biasalah memberontak. Wanie decided tak nak berhijab sebab Wani tak nampak pun apa tujuan dia. Bila parents suruh Wanie pakai tudung, Wanie macam malas sangat nak sarung that thing kat kepala ni. Wanie mengaku, Wanie tak istiqamah dalam berhijab sampai Wanie Form 5. Wanie pakai, tapi ikut mood. Kalau rasa nak pakai, Wanie pakailah.

And waktu zaman sekolah dulu, Wani selalu kena marah dengan kawan-kawan sebab tak berhijab. But when I asked, why should I wear it ? Still no one answer it. Then, waktu form 4, Wani pindah sekolah. And the best thing is sekolah tu agak Islamic so bad new untuk Wanie. hahaha, that time ok. And I'm so tensed there as there are so many things that I can't do. For me, to adapt with that kind of situation, seriously it needs time.

But people changed rite? and as time pass by, I've changed too :) Alhamdulillah
Eventhough I have made a lot of mistakes, I really thanks to Allah as He gave me time to repent. He loves me. So, masa Wani form 5, Wanie decide nak fully berhijab and tak buka dah. And Alhamdulillah, Wanie berjaya. and Wanie rasa terharu sangat when I told my parents that I want to wear hijab. Waktu tu, Wanie nampak Mummy and Babah senyum. Wanie rasa bahagia sangat. Finally, Wanie dapat hidayah dari Allah untuk berhijab. 

Wanie mengaku Wanie masih lagi baru dalam berhijab ni and Wanie harap sangat Allah tak tarik balik hidayah ni dari Wanie. Sebab pernah Wanie teringin kembali untuk free hair (Ya Allah, jauhkan perasaan ini dari dirku) So, Wanie takut sangat, sebab Wanie tahu walau sebaik mana pun perempuan itu tapi kalau dia tak bertudung @ menutup aurat, dia tetap perempuan yang jahat. and kalau perempuan yang bertudung itu @ menutup aurat, tapi dia tak berapa nak baik, dia tetap baik. sebab at least dia tahu yang dia wajib menutup aurat and dia dah laksanakan tuntutan tu.

And, Wanie berubah sebab Wanie dengar dari seorang Ustaz

" bila seorang anak melangkah setapak keluar dari rumah tanpa menutup auratnya, maka dia telah menghantar kedua ibu bapanya setapak ke neraka "

Ya Allah, sanggup ke seorang anak nak hantar parents dia ke neraka sedangkan budi dan jasa parents kita, kita tak mampu nak balas kan ?

Walaupun Wanie tahu yang Wanie belum menutup aurat secara sempurna, I hope I can improve it day by day. And, Wanie bersyukur sangat ditemukan dengan ramai orang yang membantu Wanie. *sayang korang semua <3.

with lot of love, 

Najwa <3